I find I do the same with car head lights... watching the shadows dance across the walls and ceiling as I sit in the dark doing nothing but watching.
I talk about how I think too much.
That is not a lie. I do.
I never thought it was weird until I got older and people started reacting to my overly worked out thought process. Same thing with dreams. I didn't realize that some people didn't dream how I did.
I'm sure it means something.
Well, I'm sure it means something to someone out there at some college attempting to get their PhD in psychology.
But to me... they're just dreams.
I over analyze so many things in my life that I tend to leave my dreams alone. I don't think that they are prophetic, not even a little bit. And I think you can control your dreams as much as you want to. I do it all the time... except sex dreams - I can't seem to conjure sex dreams at will. I wish I could... now THAT would be fun.
But in the end I think that they are just dreams, they are just things we want to happen, anxieties that we need to let out.
But sometimes I don't think at all. I just sit there and do nothing.
It makes me long for the days when I thought smoking in doors was ok, because I'm sure I'd just sit there and smoke and stare and veg...
From 10pm (sometimes 9pm) till I go to sleep is my time and I love it. I love every second of it. Sometimes I sit on here for hours, or I watch a movie, write, draw, bake, make sweet, sweet love to myself... sneak outside for a cigarette... workout...
Its a bizarre freedom that was thrusted upon me because of Xan sleeping more and more. Some nights I too, around 2, go to sleep... but I hate sleeping on the couch so nights like tonight - I won't.
It's nice every once in a while not thinking at all.
Tonight's plan is to get caught up on over a years worth of comic books. It's a tall order but there are only 5 titles so I think I'll get through most of them.
Coraline? Read it in an hour and a half. 161 pages.
I would love the superpowers of invisibility and teleportation - but no - I can read fast.
It's probably for the best... If I could turn myself invisible and teleport anywhere I wanted too I'd just get myself into lots and lots of trouble... :)
You know what I was thinking about earlier?
I think that they are very sexy
A man with crows feet by his eyes and laugh lines by his mouth - those are two sexy, sexy things...
But tonight I'm thinking about nothing
Well, nothing related to me
and the nerdfest will begin - NOW!
yes - another nerdy Friday night on my couch