Wednesday, November 30, 2011


look at that
the sun, the moon, the sky, the stars...
listen to that perfect sound of silence
how it slices through you
leaving you in piles on the ground
two sides never knowing what the other wants
what the other is thinking
with a bandage like cocoon
and a wish in the air
another breath on the breeze
just look...
look at how it's never what it seems

Monday, November 28, 2011

Sunday, November 27, 2011

The Soundtrack of My Life - "Girls with Accents" Fences

Fences. Hm...

I know I've talked about him before. He, Christopher Mansfield, and how he doesn't look the part - and that's a great thing. Who wants the look the part? The part of what?


Fences set off the indie music journey.
My methadone from punk to... this new life. The essence I was looking for but has long left punk. It became something else and I became someone else and I found new sounds to describe me and my life.... some of those old tune still apply - but so many of them really, really don't.

It really is an old story that touches all of us.
We sit and we wish for one thing and then, slowly, end up with another.

I wanted to be a punk princess that flashed he boobs on stage and never could bring myself to go that far. At the time I was annoyed with that voice that made me stop and now I love her.

I missed things.
I messed up things.
I screwed up royally on a number of occasion.
I've cried myself to sleep.
I've eaten my weight in ice cream (soy/coconut of course).

When change comes to your life the first reaction is to clench your jaw, bawl your fists, plant your feet and yell "NO!" as loud as you can. "I won't change! I don't want you!"

Change comes in the things we do every day.
The things we say... the things we don't.
The preference of reading material may seem like a small thing - but when it rolls down the slope of our life, gathering up other things one at a time, then the avalanche starts and we don't remember how - we just know we're sitting in a bedroom that is yours, but it's not... yours... not yet.

We're good at seeing the big blips on the radar, but the little ones we pay no notice too. We hold onto the argumentative moments in our lives that were brought on by other people doing our bidding, by other people who refused to notice what we wanted or needed or thought we needed.

So that brings me to this moment in my life.

I have memories that are 15 years old - the seeds that were planted into my brain that made me become the person I am today. I love this me. She's not 100%, but that's fine. If I was then what would I have to work on? What would there be to do NEXT? And boy do I love NEXT.

We all have pasts.
We all have futures.

We get to f*ck up everything so that we can dig through and find what is important.

There will be a thousand more people in my life and all of them, all of those moments, ah... they're perfect.

So I give you Fences, "Girls with Accents" - this moment, this song, this me - I'm fine with the mess ups because they are some of the best memories I have and while some people where hurt and others have forgotten (me) - the drums will roll, the guitars will play, the lyrics will sing and life won't wait.

Vegan Thanksgiving - the honest to god truth...

Ah... how we plan things and then life just does whatever the hell it wants! I find the older I get the less I plan - my life is a simple outline of things I want to happen... at some point. I will wait for things, if I want them bad enough, and if I don't - eh - whatever, right?

It's nature's colander. In the end you have what you want and the rest just runs down the drain of time. (I sound like the opening to a soap opera)

After my two posts I'll tell you what happened. First, we almost bird-less bird-less. When you grow up in a city like Cleveland where everyone nods an smiles at your veganism you never have many problems finding that "vegan" bird two days before Thanksgiving. Hell, if the store is open ON Thanksgiving, you'll still find it. (I know this because it's happen to me before). But here... in sunny L.A., things are different and they laugh at you when you come in and ask for your vegan roast two days before the big event.

But my husband is a savior and after a few phone calls - BAM - Vegan Turkey with wild rice stuffing, gravy AND (& & &) an Amy's Vegan Chocolate cake (which was divine).

PHEEWWWW! Sidestepped that land mine.

Here is what we DIDN'T have:

Brussels, couldn't find them in any variety so we substitute broccoli - which we also didn't have due to how hot it was in my kitchen by the time they were up at the plate.

We also did not have the salad... (yes. I'm the vegetable-less vegan...)

By the time I made it to the final few items my kitchen was so hot I had to leave and by then I just wanted to eat so... (excuses, excuses!)

Recipes that changed:

The Candied Yams - my vat of ricemellow was growing gray hair, so I opted to toss it in the old trash. What I did instead was toss together some freshly made brown sugar, butter and cinnamon with partially boiled wash, pealed and chopped sweet potatoes and then baked it for 15 minutes on Thanksgiving. This turned out to be my favorite thing. It was yummy and better than any sweet potatoes I've had with marshmallows so I plan on doing this again next year!

The Pumpkin Cheesecake - after getting everything rolling (including 3 trips to the store and one that included my son vomiting all over himself and me having to use my shirt to clean him up to get home) the cheesecake was very close to being on the chopping block. To add to that, I realized when I got HOME that the recipe called for "Organic Pumpkin PIE Mix" and not just "Organic Pumpkin" so I went on to my trusty phone and looked up this recipe and I mixed it with the Kind Life recipe - and it turned out great! Another thing I did was I used cinnamon graham crackers. It turned out great, my husband loved it so much he put it on the menu of our imaginary diner "Hanks".

The Mashed Potatoes - Added diced caramelized onions to this and I then the Earth Balance, 1/2 container vegan cream cheese, and vegan broth - salt and pepper. Mashed the hell out of it, put it in a baking dish and baked it for 20 on Thanksgiving. (this was also added to the menu)

The Cranberries - I added OJ to the water sugar mix.

Cinnamon Rolls - I used the sweet bread recipe for them and it was the best idea I've had in many years. I now crave them. (and I now need to take another 7 mile walk....)

A Recipe I MISSED! (blurg)

Stuffing! How did I miss this? It's the #1 Turkey Day request.

My plan had been to make the stuffing I always make. Grab a bag of dried up bread or just toast some day old bread in the oven after I chopped it up into cubes and set it aside. The saute up some onion, celery and carrots - stir in the bread - season with some Italian Season (or whatever I have on hand - basil and oregano are the norm) and then toss it with some vegan broth -> bake.

What I DID was saute up some onion and celery with some tofurky sausage then added the bread, which was the corn bread stuffing mix from Trader Joe's (Husband couldn't find the bag of bread cubes. Shopping two days before T-day is interesting in itself.) I also added some wild rice from Whole Foods and then I tossed it with the broth and the seasoning packet and baked it. It was great. We had tons of left overs and I loved all of them.

Thanksgiving was a success. Yes, I missed some recipes, but over all it was great.
Next year I think I'll plan a bit better - none of this waiting until two days prior to the event to run out and try to find things I need.

We're still dining on apple crisp & pumpkin muffins - but the cheesecake is gone. So are the tofurky, stuffing, cranberries and every other dish.

Now... I'm thinking for next month I want to make gluten free vegan lasagna. Yep. I'm not sure how this will work seeing that I can't find gluten free lasagna noodles, but I can always make them - really - it's not the first noodle I've made! But I have a few weeks till then and I have some music to listen to, poems to write, a new book to research, an agent to find, some cookies to come up with, a house to decorate, a few miles to walk and I STILL haven't spoken about my trip out here...

Oh the blogs I have to write!! LOL! Soon... soon... but for now I'm going to go watch some cheesy holiday movie (thinking Snow) and then I'm going to read a bunch of research.

Have a fabulous night!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Aryn's Thanksgiving BLOWOUT! - part 2

So here is my part two.

Okay, so since yesterday, we've had a development. It seems we may be going with out a bird-less bird this season. We shall see. (this is what waiting till the last minute looks like. My bad!)


The salad (because greens are your friend!) is simple.

1/2 head Romain - washed and chopped
A mix of "southern greens" meaning Collard, Mustard, Dandelion <= this is my base, on top...
1 Zucchini
1 cucumber
2 tomatoes
1 large carrot

For the tomatoes, cut into wedges and then in half - much easier when they're already bit sized.
The Zucchini, Carrot and Cucumber - Get your vegetable peeler and peel off the top layer, then move to bowl and begin to create ribbons of these delicious food on top of greens. When you get to the center of both the zucchini and the cucumber, set aside.

Toss the salad so the ribbons are going through-out.

Chop up the center of the cucumber and zucchini and that and the tomatoes into salad - toss again.

You're salad is done.

If you want to go that extra step - the easiest vegan salad dressing to make in a flash is Fresh Squeezed Lemon, Olive Oil (extra virgin) and Basil. (If you have fresh, go that route, if not, just sprinkle with what you have on hand.)


Brussel Sprouts:

Get a big old pile of these little guys - fresh preferred.
Chop off part of the stem, take off the first layer of leaves, wash and chop in half.
STEAM - 3 minutes. If you don't have a steamer (& I do not) Put them into a plastic colander and set it onto of a microwave proof bowl filled with water in the microwave. Set it for 3 minutes. And that's how easy it is.


Heat up a saute pan on the stove and but in a tablespoon of Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Once the brussels are done steaming, toss them into pan and saute until golden brown (the leaves will be a bit crispy on top). Season with a little salt and pepper.


Read directions on the back of package - add butter. Done.

Now comes dessert... There are two things I plan on making - if it's possible:

Vegan Pumpkin Cheesecake (brought to you from The Kind Life) and Apple Crisp:

Apple Crisp:


  • 10 cups all-purpose apples, peeled, cored and sliced
  • 1 cup sugar (sugar in the raw. Florida Crystals, etc)
  • 1 tablespoon all-purpose flour organic and unbleached
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 cup water
  • 1 cup quick-cooking oats (you CAN use whole oats - just add more butter)
  • 1 cup all-purpose flour
  • 1 cup packed brown sugar
  • 1/4 teaspoon baking powder
  • 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1 tablespoon canola oil
  • 1 tablespoon molasses 
  • 1/2 cup butter, melted

This is a very easy recipe and I make it all the time. (ALL the time.)

Heat 350 - Put oats into a bowl and mix in all the other dry ingredients and mix it up nice and good. THEN add the the oil, molasses, and butter. (If you want to mix it up - skip brown sugar and add REAL maple syrup. Not TABLE syrup - which is normally high fructose corn syrup or brown rice syrup)

Mix it nice and good - set aside.

Place apples in a greased baking dish. Add Sugar, Flour, Cinnamon and water. Mix it up. Top with Oats - put in oven for 40 minutes (to and hour) Allow to cool - eat with soy delicious ice cream.

And HERE is the Pumpkin Cheesecake recipe. I lifted it right off their site. I probably won't make the candied cranberries for two reason. I used my cranberries already, but mostly because my husband won't eat them so it's a waste of a perfectly good fruit.

Pumpkin Cheesecake with Candied Cranberries

For the candied cranberries:

  • 2 cups fresh cranberries, rinsed and drained
  • 2 cups sugar substitute (either maple syrup or agave nectar, whichever you prefer)
  1. Prick each cranberry several times with straight pin.
  2. Bring sugar substitute and water to boil over medium heat.
  3. Cook until sugar reaches 230 F on candy thermometer.
  4. Add cranberries, and cook ten minutes or until syrup gels a bit.
  5. Remove berries with slotted spoon and lay out on plate.
  6. Save in refrigerator for adding to top of cheesecake later.
For the crust:

  • Pre-made organic vegan graham-cracker crust (for ease)
Or, if you prefer to make your own:
  • 10 sheets vegan graham crackers
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • 2 oz Earth Balance butter
Steps (if you aren't using premade)
  1. Process crackers and salt into fine crumbs in food processor.
  2. Add Earth Balance and pulse to combine.
  3. Press mixture into bottom and half way up sides of 9 inch spring form pan.

For the cheesecake filling:

  • 12 oz. silken tofu
  • 8 oz. vegan cream cheese
  • 3/4 can Whole Foods Organic Pumpkin Pie Filling
  • 1/4 cup agave nectar
  • 1/4 tsp ground nutmeg
  • 1/4 tsp ground cinnamon
  1. Puree all ingredients in food processor until very smooth, about 3-5 minutes.
  2. Pour into crust and bake at 350 F for 50 minutes.
  3. Chill completely in refrigerator at least 3 hours, up to overnight.
  4. Garnish with candied cranberries, slice and serve.
NOW... I am off... I will be back next week to let you know just how delicious things turned out! I've already had to make a few changes... (damned sweet potatoes!) But thems the breaks!!

Gobble! Gobble! Gobble!! And HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Aryn's Thanksgiving BLOWOUT!! - part 1

First - I was planning to list a week of recipes for you to look over, ponder, and then make and consume this coming Thursday.

Then - I decided to wait. I figured I would make up a pile of food and then tell you about it in the up coming week(s).

Now - I'm hungry and I have Thanksgiving on the brain... so here I am! Below are listed what I PLAN on having for Thanksgiving. Some of the items I have made some I have made up and plan on testing out on Thursday (candied sweet potatoes are a prime example) - so that means I just don't know how this will turn out.

Will it be the best idea I've ever had?

Will it be the worst? (no - and BOY do I have the baggage to prove it! phew!)

Will it be the most funnest thing ever? (once again no - funnest isn't a word)


For the "Bird" we will be having the Turtle Island "Tofurky" Holiday Roast. Complete with wild rice stuffing and a gelatinous gravy. (all gravy is gelatinous when cold. this is normal. please remain calm.)

I am a fan of both turtle island and tofurky. This is not my first bird-less bird, but it certainly is my favorite. I've had the kind you see in television shows that make fun of vegans/vegetarians where its looks like a cardboard cut out (and it tastes like one too). Tofurky is VEGAN - meaning no animal products byproducts at all.

If you're not vegan - and aren't a fan of tofurky (shame on you...) try Quorn! They have a Roast Log - also delicious.

Don't wait until the last second or you really will be sands bird.

Breakfast: (lets start at the top folks!)

Pumpkin Muffins:
Yes. Pumpkin. Muffins. YUM!! 

I'm going to use this recipe I found on All and pop it into the Veganizer - beep! beep! beep! beep! BEEEP!!! VOILA! 


  • 2 cups sugar - that's a LOT of sugar. I'll cut this by 1/2
  • 1/2 cup vegetable oil
  • 3 eggs - Egg Replacer or (more than likely) apple sauce. 1/4 C per Egg
  • 1 1/2 cups canned pumpkin
  • 1/2 cup water
  • 3 cups all-purpose flour - Organic AND Unbleached
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder -
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cloves - I don't have any. SKIP!
  • 3/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 1 1/2 cups raisins <= Husband won't eat this
  • 1 cup chopped walnuts <= Husband won't eat this
(who am I kidding? Neither will I. It's not that I'm anti-raisin or anti-walnut for that matter, I'm just anti-texture in my muffins. I like nice smooooooooth muffins! Can I get an Amen?!)


  1. In a large mixing bowl, beat sugar, oil, eggs - substitute, pumpkin and water. Combine flour, baking powder, soda, spices and salt. Add to pumpkin mixture; blend well. Fold in raisins and walnuts. Spoon into greased muffin tins, filling 3/4 full. Bake at 400 degrees F for 15 minutes.
  2. Skip the greasing and find cut cupcake holders - this give you something to hold under your chin when the crumbs come crumbling down.

Cinnamon Rolls:
Any excuse to make cinnamon rolls is a good excuse to make cinnamon rolls. (Hey! It's 3pm - CINNAMON ROLLS! Hey! It's sunny! CINNAMON ROLLS!) 


  • 3/4 cup Soy/Rice/Almond milk
  • 1/4 cup Earth Balance, softened
  • 3 1/4 cups all-purpose flour <= split this in half. 1 part organic unbleached all purpose. 1 part organic wheat.
  • 1 (.25 ounce) package instant yeast - I never measure yeast. I just don't. Looks around 2 tbsp. Yes its a lot, but it's SO worth it when your rolls are all fluffy. 
  • 1/4 cup white sugar <= eww! NEVER! Organic UN-processed sugar. 
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt <= anytime something calls for salt, I put in a pinch. 
  • 1/4 cup water
  • 1 egg - I use replacer because I don't want apples ruining my cinnamon. PS - you can add 1/4 C Oil as an egg replacer too. 
  • 1 cup brown sugar, packed <= MAKE YOUR OWN 1 Cup unprocessed, not refined, Organic Sugar and 2 TBSP molasses. Mash it up with a fork. BAM! Brown Sugar (Emeril doing the Stones)
  • 1 tablespoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 cup Earth Balance, softened
  • 1/2 cup raisins (optional) <= FRIEND'S DON'T LET FRIEND RAISIN THE ROLL... just sayin'...

  • Heat over - 375

  • Put all the dry ingredients into a bowl and whisk it together (including the 1/4 C sugar.) Add DRY yeast and whisk it in. Set aside.
  • Heat up milk in the microwave (or on stove if you're in the mood) just before boiling. Stir in the 1/4 Earth Balance and let the mixture cool a bit. 

  • Meanwhile...
Make up your brown sugar and set that - cinnamon, other dose of butter aside.

mix in milk mixture. If it's still more flour than dough, slowly add in that 1/4 c water - until the dough begins to ball. Pull the dough out of mixer and set on floured surface. Roll up sleeves, turn kitchen timer on to 6 minutes and begin to kneed the dough - UNTIL - the timer beeps. 

Put dough in bowl. Put bowl in microwave. Go drink some coffee, tea, mimosas - whateve and kick back for 20 minutes. 

When you're rest is up, take dough and roll it out into a rectangle. Keep the dough about 1/4" thick. SLATHER with Earth Balance Butter, cover with Brown Sugar and sprinkle cinnamon all over that bad boy. Roll into a log. 

Using a REALLY sharp knife or a bread knife, cut into 12 rolls.

Place them into a greased pan. Let them sit for 10 more minutes. Drizzle with melted butter. 
Bake for about 20 minutes. Start checking at twenty minutes. Once they're golden brown - they're done.

Let them cool a few minutes before consuming. 

Sides - 
Mashed Potatoes:

1 potato per person you're serving. (I'm going to make 4)
Wash them well, chop into cubes, place into stock pot and cover with lightly salted water.

Boil until you can poke the pieces and they fall apart. Drain and put them back in the warm pot. To this we're going to add 
1/4 C Earth Balance Butter.
1/2 container Tofutti Better than Cream Cheese
1/2 C Vegetable Broth (vegan in nature)
1 head roasted Garlic
Salt & Pepper to taste

Mix it all in - using a masher MASH

Put in baking dish - place in preheated oven 350 - drizzle a little melted butter over it - Bake 10 minutes until you have golden brown peaks.

Candied Sweet Potatoes:

2 bigger in size Sweet Potatoes (or yams)
Vegan Marshmallow fluff - rice-mallow
brown sugar.

Peel and cut potatoes into bit size pieces - place in a pot, cover with water - boil until ALMOST tender.
Drain - place back on pot. Mix in (lets say 3 TBSP) Butter; 1/4 Brown Sugar (or 1/4 sugar and 2 TBSP molasses) and 1/2 container of the fluff. Mix it all together - pour into baking dish and top with other 1/2 of fluff - bake for 15 minutes 350. 

Hmm... I need to add to this, but my child is climbing on me, so I'll be back tomorrow with more ideas and a few dessert... YUM! 
OK Vegan Turkey Lovers... GO! (eat)


Monday, November 21, 2011

Giving Thanks

Hello all! And welcome to the week of giving thanks!
I had intended on having a week of recipes (just like last month) but due to the complications of NOT having the internet for a month, I'm just a tad bit behind... (I'm really far behind, who am I kidding?)

There are a lot of factors that go into this delinquency of blog - lack of internet, moving to L.A., finishing my book, realizing it should be two book, and finally three words - editing, editing & editing! (which I'll be back at this very wonderful evening!

Life has been good! I will admit I've had a few blogs dance throughout my  head over these past weeks. Ones that include my aw of driving across country.
Ones about the on going "Occupy" sit-ins around the globe.
Ones about the rhythm of this city, music, my family and that big beautiful ocean that is only 7 (really long) miles away from my new home.

I'll see which ones I have the chance to post. I'd mush them all into one, but that would be a very long post, and lets be honest, who really wants to read a 14 page blog post?

But... life IS good. Life IS great.

I'm looking forward to all the new adventures I have to look forward to in my life, while I work out the other kinks that I couldn't seem to leave in Cleveland (I'm too hard on myself, but someone needs to be.)

But still - I AM thankful.
In my 36 years I've had the honor and of meeting honor and friending some amazing people. I've had the privilege of being able to do, for the most part, exactly what I want with my life. I can sit here and look back knowing, accepting and understanding that the life I've had is the direct effect of the decisions I've made.

People like to post on twitter and facebook a slew of things they're grateful for during this month. For family, friends, food, shelter - and everything in between. I wish we could do that year round. Maybe no online, but in our own lives.

I'm off... I'll try to make it back on here at some point, but it's the holidays! And that means cleaning... :)

Happy Thanksgiving to all, even if you're not American or you don't celebrate this day. Just stop and think about what there is to be thankful for.

Trust me, it'll make your day so much happier!

love to all

Friday, November 18, 2011

The Soundtrack of my Life - "Sorry For it All" Dead Sara

Dead Sara is a local L.A. band that I recently found by googling things on my phone (in that very long void of time where I had no access to the internet... oh the pain...)

Can't say I know much about them. They just released their freshmen album, "The Airport Sessions" - and they're touring. (which is good - go see them).

Outside of that, the one thing I do know is that I like them.

This isn't the first song of theirs I stumbled on, but let's be honest. I'm a lover of all things that make my heart stir and hinder the threat of possible tears - and that is how this song made this list.
If you stop and listen to the lyrics you will quickly find it's all about being dumped. How terrible it is when the other person won't tell you why "it's not you its me" and exploring the heart wrenching feeling as that person leaves and you sit, soundless.

When I heard this song it made me miss being in a band - very, very badly.

When my band fell apart, because we never really broke up - we just kinda stopped practicing, playing... talking... we just went our separate ways. Recently I've bridged that gap and have begun talking to people from that long forgotten life. And that is good. You grow, you live, you screw up, you learn and you start again... that's life.

You see, being part of a band is very much like dating - but instead of you and one other person it's you and 3 or 4 or (if you're pfunk - 25) other people. Everyone has a view, an issues, an idea, a lyric, a rift... It's hard work to juggle all of that and to create and make something that's not a hot pile of nothing. And when you begin to let outside issues influence things - well that's a whole other blog post.

It's hard to write a song that makes someone who is in a happy relationship sit down and want to cry because you forced them to remember a long forgotten feeling - helplessness.

"This song is not for you, its for everything I wish I could be
Behind closed doors is where I stand, closed windows, one more chance...
And you are sorry for it all....
I can't, nothing is my fault."

Being an artist is part of me. Maybe I won't stand on a stage again (excluding karaoke) and sing my heart out. Maybe I won't write the next hit single or even one that 3 people outside of me, will listen to. But being an artist, being able to express myself creatively, is one of the most important things about me and it is one that I love.
I love to sit here at this computer and plug away - filling that void of white with little black letters - stringing them together until they make you feel something.

Because if we don't feel anything, then what's the point?

When I was told to use my words, I took them literal.
I want to be a rock star in novel form and feel the heat of the stage lights on my face again when I talk about my books.

I know what I want.

And some times that is as scary as not knowing anything at all... (but I don't plan on letting that stop me)

Please enjoy Dead Sara "Sorry for it all" - and please, find what inspires you.  No excuses.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

A Thanksgiving MeMe!!

There are so many things to learn about people in this world. What they stand for, what they won't. What they're favorite colors are... and what they love about Thanksgiving! Here you go...

1. What are the traditional favorites?
To be honest, I'm vegan - so I love stuffing and dressing, but it's not really that traditional... because I don't eat meat (or dairy). BUT the recipes that I ADORE that are Turkey Day related are: Baked Sweet Potatoes, Homemade Cranberry sauce (with only cranberries, no apples and no celery. PLEASE no celery.) Stuffing - and then a little more stuffing. (I'm not a girl afraid of carbs.)

2. What new recipes will you try this year?
I'm trying a new Pumpkin Cheese Cake recipe that was posted by The Kind Life. I'll let you know how it turns out. (here's the link)

3. What part of the meal do you never compromise?
Dessert. I never compromise that part of any meal. Who would? The only reason to eat all that other stuff is to eat dessert. And sometimes its the only part of the meal... those are my favorite....

4. Who gets to carve the turkey?
We eat Tofurky. Now, now... wipe that silly image of a cardboard shaped bird out of your head. I've had those, they're terrible. But alas!! I eat Tofurky made by Turtle Island Foods - very yummy. Buy it. Eat it. NOW. you've been told....

5. Family style around the table or buffet style and everyone sits wherever there’s room?
Family stile. I hate buffet. 

6. How many will be at your table this year?
Three and a half

7. Three best pies for Thanksgiving dessert?
Pumpkin. Pumpkin and Pumpkin.

8. Cranberry sauce… yay or nay?
I will never understand people who don't like cranberries... it's just weird to me... 

9. What time do you eat Thanksgiving Dinner?
between 3-6 - this is a rather boring MeMe... hmmm... next month I'll try harder... PROMISE!

10. Favorite leftover?
All of it!! (because it means I get a day off from cooking)

Friday, November 11, 2011

The Soundtrack of My Life, "Gray or Blue - Jaymay"

With life comes love.
With life comes truth.

I've had many connections in my life. I like to joke with my friends that I was that girl that just kept falling in love, because I was....
I can't sit here and tell you the amount of times, but I know it was many and for just as many reasons. Yes, I have a type, we all have a "type" - but I think once in a blue moon - those types and those moments of smitten love tumble into each other and we suddenly find that person...

There they are. Right in front of you, and you know what? It's not that perfect night. The moon isn't shining. There weren't candies and there won't be flowers. But this time you can feel it in your gut - it's different. You're different.

You will remember many things in life. Heart break. Failure. Missed moments.
You will remember lust, the good kind that makes you toes curl and your mouth fall open - a pink tongue on your lips.
You will remember so much - and you will remember the moment you meet "the one."

The moment he walks up to you and you become so terrible uncomfortable that you have to excuse yourself. The moment they made you blush, and you never blush - ever.

There is a chasm between that moment of infatuation and when you finally - touch. Copulation of two bodies, and right AFTER that moment... then you know. As you lie there coming off the high. He's asleep, and you're just watching him and you think, "Oh God. What the hell did I just do?"

"I know the shape of your hands
Because I watch 'em when you talk
And I know the shape of your body
'Cause I watch it when you walk
And I want to know it all
But I'm giving you the lead
So go on, go on and take it
Don't fake it, shake it"

I remember that moment. It was after a roller coaster ride that was pushing me forward, and right into his arms. They were the wrong arms. Like I said... I knew it.

"Don't second-guess your feelings
You were right from the start
And I notice she's your lover
But she's nowhere near your heart
This city is for strangers
Like the sky is for the stars
But I think it's very dangerous
If we do not take what's ours"

We were both with other people, and they weren't right and he left just when I left and we cried a lot together. Sat on the phone for hours telling each other we'd meet someone and we were good people and that breaking up was terrible and it was okay... We would be okay...

We went to see Radio Head  -  crash... 
We kissed...
It's been 10 years.

"And I'm winning you with words
Because I have no other way
I'd love to look into your face
Without your eyes turning away
Last night I watched you sing
Because a person has to try
And I walked home in the rain
Because a person cannot lie..."

That wrong little moment that was never meant to be was the very moment that created this one. And it is perfect...

I give you Jaymay "Gray or Blue" (and to answer that... it depends on his shirt, but today they're blue)

p.s. this was the first movie we saw in the theater... how about that for odd - guess the song was meant to be.